30 June 2012

Restarting

Why do I always feel like I have to start afresh? Today I have just been overcome with the realization that more stuff just never seems to be enough. All the new clothes I bought are now old and I don't feel like wearing them. Maybe a hair cut or getting my cartilage pierced or re-doing my room will fill that hole that's eating away at my heart... think again. What is this and why the heck do I never feel content with all the wonderful things I already have?! Why do I spend hours on the computer wishing I could have that outfit I saw on Pinterest or be as awesome as my friends appear to be on Facebook. I want to feel completely whole but it's quite difficult when the whole world is screaming at you that "YOU ARE NOT ENOUGH!!!!" I need the silence and peace of alone time in Christ. I need to remember that the ONLY way I will EVER feel whole is drawing close to Him. I need to be away somewhere alone with God. Maybe the mountains.. I feel a hike coming on soon...